I'm Just Me (dreamalwz) wrote in raw_dc,
I'm Just Me

Hi, my name is Tracey.
I'm not one to put myself out there, but

Throughout my life I've have problems with food. I physically coudln't digest certain foods from the time I was born because I was a premi. As I got old it was ok and I gradually could introduce more and more foods with the exception of much sugar. I was doing gymnastics and living my life great. Sure, I ate junkfood, but I always burned it off running. (Yes, I know this is not an ED community but once you finish reading I'm sure you'll understand why I type this).

I quit gymnastics and not the eating habbits. The weight caught up with me. About my sophomore year I developed an ED and just wasn't eating much AT ALL. I was scared I would get fatter. The things I chose to eat were: low cal bread, eggwhites, rice cakes, ff cheese, and other low cal things). Then the ED turned around to another one. I began binging on all things like corn, gluten, sugar...anything (NOT junkfood at this point, all healthy, but a lot). It was all dun dun dun...cooked. I was torturing myself for about a year until I discovered I had allergies to corn, soy, egg, dairy, potato, sugar, wheat/gluten, and nuts. They came on suddenly and developed rapidly. (those are also the things i ate most of in my restricting stage...coincidence?)

Now, if I eat even a morsal of those foods I retain SO much water I go up 3 sizes in pants and it's SO embarassing. I get depressed and sometimes suicidal over the puffiness, not to mention headaches, icky, lethargic, ect. It takes 3 days for things to get out of systems but once my body starts reacting and elminating I start to crave them again and guess what happens (damn vicious cycle).

I started experimenting with diets. Well, a dit not as in weightloss. I tried eat JUST fruits and vegetables and felt better except I still felt "heavy", thick, and drained. Turns out I'm intolerant of many fruits and vegetables too to some degree or another. Same with dried beans and sprouts. I went to raw. After one day I felt AMAZING. Yes, I was still puffy but I felt clean, pure, light on the inside. My energy levels soared. I loved it, but my cravings got the best of me and I fell back into that trap.

Finally I went 10 days in a row. Lost all that puff and started to like what I saw for the first time in about 4 years. Thanksgiving ruined it because I wanted to make my mom happy by eating steamed veggies and turkey. What a mistake THAT was. It has been a horrible two weeks later. I've been eating non stop and put on ALL that weight again plus puff. It's horrible. I'm going 100% raw again tomorrow for at least a month. The problem is that my options seem to be growing smaller and smaller every day. I'm starting to puff with each food almost (spinach, apples, pears, grapes, ect.) I have no food left. Years ago I would've thought this a good thing, but trying to recover from an ED as well it doesn't help. I'm SO scared and desperate of what to do anymore and I think that raw is the BEST answer even if I puff up a little.

Some questions
1) what do you think about sea salt while going raw?
2) do i NEED protein from nuts and seeds, I've read that you can get enough from the "green plants" and since I can't get it anywhere else...help, i'm stuck here.
3) roughly how long is the detox period when going raw? especially for food intolerance.

Thank you in advance :)
BTW i'm only 17. Please don't think of me as too young. Someone once said "you're the most intune person with your body that I know, you can tell waht every single cell of you is doing." It's crazy I tell you!
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